That feeling is back. {Story of Man & Woman}

I snapped back to reality. It feels like i have been in a trance this whole time. Always feeling like your talking to someone that knows you. But really they cant even think about stepping in your shoes for a second. Because its not in them to want to break away from their ordinary train of though. For the fear that it might de rail their thoughts for ever. But some have this train derailed with out them doing a thing to the course that it was on. Its as if someone posted up a wall in between you and the bridge. You happen to smack it with full force, and while your slowly crashing into the wall that you built for yourself, you seem to realize that you have no way back on the path that you were on. You cant just pick up the pieces and set them on the track. The damage. The devastation. Its all in your mind. But still to great to comprehend. You will never be able to get back on that path.

You have been left with no path to fallow. So you begin to think of ways around the mental block you have set on your heart. But really your just left with yourself. When your lost you have so many thoughts rattling in your skull. Will you decide to avoid them or will you be the one to embrace them and start building your own path one brick at a time. You may have some trouble deciding which brick goes where but thats the greatest part. Learning how to create your own path to your heart. When you reach that point of which your heart becomes one with you, you will reach {her}.

The apple cant fall far from the tree. Will you sacrifice your beautiful world of which you built for yourself for something such as love? I know i will. I will eat the apple just for the taste of something sweet. It could come back to bite me. But its just the price i am willing to pay for love. Because love has been around since adam and eve. But what has led us to dream of walking hand in hand like them. What separates us from them. A simple period of time cant classify where they were. Maybe adam was the last man to walk the earth at a time like we are in right now. Until he decided to look up and say to himself, i will sacrifice a piece of me for the company of another heart that beats just like mine. But will she be willing to do the same for me? Its hard to say. Because she already has a part of you. She can always go on without you and find another piece of herself to fill in until she is the image of which she wishes to portray. While we are always giving away pieces of ourselves. She is just filling in the blanks that she believes are made by you. But really no one can fill those holes except for her. But that would require thought. WIll she sacrifice herself for him just as he did for her. Or will she continue to take bites of apples that fall from the tree, until she finds a sweet enough taste to help rid the taste that was left by him. Because the fact is He had to sacrifice so much of himself just for her. That he soon forgot who he was.... He now knows that he will always be left with those thoughts of what would have happened if he didnt give that piece of himself up. For the truth is. Eventually he would have found his counterbalance no matter what. Its just that our minds choose to sacrifice things that we dont even have.


I find love in the fact that she ponders just like i do. It may not be the exact same thoughts. But she feels the same way i do. Thats all that matters.

Another Day.

Its safe to say.

That things happen for a reason. I believe in seeing signs. I think its about time that i start changing things for good. I can only breath in so many toxic fumes. When i have others around me trying to toxicify themselfs i begin to fall into the same trap door i always fall into. But today i plan to seal that trap door for good because i cant stand having to watch my step in my own house.

Faces come and go, but they never disappear.

I wake up this morning knowing that its soon to be a day just like the other days. Has this really became my job? My friends come over periodically through the day to see what progress i have made on my paintings or sketches. We all hope to make an impact on each others day in some way shape of form. Either it be through a dvd they just picked up, to a vinyl we can all take a turn at on the tables, to a certain weed we haven't tried ever. Its one of those things where you sit and wonder why you are at home, when you realize your not at home. Your at a place where everyone considers home. Your at a level that people on mtv hope to get made to on a stupid reality show that just makes you experience the factor that we are human and we all have flaws that will some how one day come out and slap you in the face. My flaw is i am way too fucking down to earth. But i already got my slap in the face and it was from someone who knows exactly where i am coming from. Because she's my mom haha.

When you wake up in the morning to a call from your friend saying "Yo fool you think i can swing by and get stoney before work?" and then as soon as your about to go get yourself some grub you got another phone call " YO! What up? Down to blaze before i go pick up a fresh sack?". Its as if i am living that 70's show but 20th century status. haha Its so weird to think that ever since 9th grade this is the way its been, and in no way am i tired of it.

On Another thought. Watch this.